I have been watching the moon lately
Even more than usual
She seems to be growing faster than she normally does
Swelling with the tension of my next transition
Preparing to burst above me as I tumble headfirst into the murky pool of change
And swear to my friends that I cannot swim

These days I feel I have nowhere to hide
The nights have been clear lately
And I cannot feign confusion traveling along a well-lit path 
I must just admit that I am afraid

I feel the days clicking by, but the moon measures them in a way more painfully poignant than the calendar on my wall
I have been standing naked underneath her as the light slowly scrapes away at my skin
Exposing each shadowy corner of my soul
Splaying my dreams out on the concrete
Plucking the strings of my vulnerabilities 
Playing a familiar lullaby I cannot name

I have been watching the moon lately 
I think it will be full in a week
But I check each night, just to be sure she is getting bigger
A reminder that I am here 
Two feet on this planet
Dancing as it moves beneath me
Kissing, laughing, dizzy
Blinded by the sun

And then at night, once again I am quiet
Alone with my thoughts
And the woman glowing in the sky 
Watching me wrestle with myself 
And the simple passage of time 

Underneath a silent waxing crescent